Know Your Truth

My “normal” is being redefined constantly. It has been about a month since I have started getting treatment for my Bipolar disorder which is about how long it takes for the medication to be in full effect. One thing I am getting used to is remembering to take my medication the same times everyday to avoid the splitting headache that accompanies missing a dose. Remembering the hopeless despair that I have felt at my low’s helps keep the importance of maintenance in perspective. I mean, you don’t only open the hood of your car when something is wrong, right? No, you change the oil preventatively; check the fluids preventatively.

This attitude is important to remember with our spirituality as well. When the proverbial “stuff” hits the fan, we pray harder than ever. We dive into our word. We call upon God. Why? Because He saves. He is our savior. He brings us hope when we can’t seem to find any. So, how about when things are going well? We should be praying JUST as hard when things are going great and spending just as much time in our relationship with our savior. Being someone who struggles with anything other than extremes, I admit this can be difficult for me.

In addition to extreme moods: my interest, my motivation, my diligence… it all fluctuates from one end of the spectrum to the other. This means that one day I will throw myself into my work and accomplish a weeks worth of work. However, another day, I will struggle to find the motivation to tackle even one task. My spiritual life, if I am not careful, can go from reading several books of the bible, writing a sermon, and spending hours in devotional to … a desert.

Maintenance is key. Whether it is spiritual, mental, physical, etc. Maintenance is key. Know your warning signs. How can you recognize that you are falling off of course? For me, I don’t typically see it until I am out of control in one or all areas. Until I get better at this I need to trust in those around me. Accountability partners are so important.

KNOW YOUR TRUTH.

Whatever that may be. My truth is that I need others to help me. My truth is that I am bipolar. My truth is that I am a single mother. My truth is that I am lonely. My truth is that I am a new pastor, insecure about my age in a leadership role. My truth is that I am still finding my way and still growing; there is still SO much that I haven’t learned yet. But knowing these truths does not limit me. On the contrary, acknowledging them helps me to grow and to be a better mother, friend, christian, pastor, family member, employee, etc. Humbleness will allow me to learn from others around me. I have had to ask those close to me to catch me when I fall out of balance and to call me on it when I don’t do what I need to. Relying on them and on God will bring me closer to being the woman of God that I am striving to be.

So… What is your truth and how are you going to grow from it?

Corazón DeSueños

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https://youtu.be/Eoi1fR3py9U #EndTheStigma video sermon on mental health as a Christ Follower. 
https://youtu.be/pwn7Y8L5usY #ChristianSingle video sermon about being a single Christ Follower.